Yes H and ow practically live together....it's just a formality now, she's found a tenant for her appt so they will be moving into H's new house soon.
How do I feel about it?
Well, on the one hand I hate it ! But I also hope this will put more pressure on their relationship. Then again, nothing seems to stop that train ! They are going UP and UP and UP ! It's all great fun and joy and I truly don't even want to go there !
I used to tell my H exactly the same thing, about how it would benefit the kids...but nowadays he just says, 'because she's part of my life and I want the kids to get to know her and love her'....yuck !
You know Nutty, every day that goes by, I realize even more that there is NOTHING I can do about what is going on. It hurts horrible that we never got to work at our marriage, for I believe we really COULD hae been happy !
I have found that I have lost faith, that I pray less...and just live some days. Other days, I believe and hope.
I don't know what God's plan is. It's hard to live that way. It's hard to trust that things will be ok in the end. But I try mostly to think just that.
I have lost H. He left and will not be back.
Life is unfolding a little step at a time...and sometimes I even have to go back a few steps to try again !
Love to you ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
