We had a great Saturday! I cooked the meal that evening, again with some coaching. I learned how to cook chicken in a pressure cooker with some broth for flavoring. Cut this up to make D's favorite chicken casserole with sour cream, cream of whatever soup and topped with buttered cracker crumbs. Also make a salad to go along with it. It was a huge success and D and I even went back for seconds. \:\) I still haven't tried the Bar-B-Q chicken, I'll work my way up to that one once I have a little more confidence in the kitchen.

I left a note on W's sowing machine to come to bed that night in something sexy or nothing at all. That evening she chose nothing at all and we ML and I mean really ML! The best part though was afterwards while we lay and held each other.

It felt right to talk about having children. "W, I wish we could have just one more baby together? I know we are too old now but if we were able to I would like to give you one more."

"Yes but it's too late for us now."

"Do you ever think about the ones that we lost?"

"Sometimes I think of them, but not all of the time."

"I guess they were just not meant to be for us. I'm so sorry that we didn't have more though. At least we have D. She is growing up so wonderfully, I'm so glad that we have her in our life. W, you know that I love you so much."

"Yes. I do."

If I'll have enough patience and learn to wait for her and not have any expectations of her, I think we can have the marriage that I wish for the both of us. She is slowly seeing how our marriage can be so much more than it was before. I have hope for us once more. \:\)

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