I just read a post from trusting about her little get-away and you know what?? something she said about getting the ol' self esteem out of the toilet.... that is what i want...stepping out of the toilet!!! =)
So here I am today stepping out. A new post becasue it is a new day. Nothing has changed with x. He is still telling all of his wonderful half truths. Those would be called lies to most of us, but to him not a lie..just not full disclosure. Trying not to find out about ow or their life or not life but have to be honest it is hard not to ask...
Today I am going to the Panthers game with a friend and x had to be here to pick up d12- he of course was early and she of course wasn't quite ready...so what do you do? make them stand otu side or let them in? i let him in....didn't really want to but did. One good thing --- got him to sign something that needed to be done 9 months ago...
Not working the system or doing or any of that anymore. Just living my life. The door is closed with a large peep hole in it. Who knows waht plans God has for my life....I dont anymore.
What do I know?
I am the kind that loves with all my heart... I am the kind that is loyal and faithful... I am the kind that wants to live and not wait 60 years for an answer (sorry that is from counseling..in reference to Hannah who prayed for 60 years for a child...God did finally answer her prayer....)
What does it all mean? Nothing different really excpet I am trying to unentangle myself from x. the peep hole is there but teh door is shut.....
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
