Lee, I am sorry, I know how frustrating this all is. All I can tell you is the same thing I tell myself... patience, patience, patience. Don't give in, don't give up. You are so much further along than you were when I got on this bb. Take care, good friend.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.