I'm sorry that I was wrong about the cell phone. I still don't understand why it makes sense, but D15 told me that it's true----your biz partner's daughter has a new phone/carrier. I'm guilty, once again, of thinking the worst. It's hard not to, though, since you won't talk to me to let me know where you are at with things.
I know that you do not have the answers. I know that at this point you think there is no hope for us. I can see that in your eyes, even though you can’t look at me. I can see that you do not want to hurt me by telling me anything more.
I believe and KNOW that your assessment of our marriage and your feelings for and about me are influenced by, and have been influenced for quite some time, by your feelings for OW. There is nothing that I can do about that, but ask that you acknowledge that in some way, at least to yourself. I’m not delusional, I know that OW would not be in the picture, if WE were perfect.
You have often said that I'm smarter than you. Obviously, I'm not too smart, or I would have seen this coming. I would have done something before it was too late. Now it's not just me paying the price, it's our family. I'm sorry that I've failed. I'm sorry that I've failed our children. They are my world, as were you. I just wish I could have another chance.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
