Hi Everyone!!! I'm sorry I haven't posted much lately, I've still got that headache but it is not as bad as it was last night. But I'm really tired! I hope I can catch up with everyone's thread this weekend.
I did get some good news today, I took my dog back to the holistic vet for her monthly check up & he thinks she is doing better. She is cutting back on a lot of the supplements & with that he said that she is improving & getting on a maintenance program. He hopes with this that she will start eating better, she ate great tonight, but I had stopped & got Chinese food & gave her & the other dog some white rice. I'll have to start cooking white rice for her.
I'm doing a little better. I got really down a couple of days & just really thought that this is probably the end that I will never see my H again. But today I don't feel that way. I just can't imagine my life without him, I may have to but today I just don't exactly feel the way I did the last couple of days.
you will have your up and down days as we all do. it is normal.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
NLT good news about the dog, sorry about the job. I always look at it then it wasn't God's plan for your life. I remember so many times when I needed a job so badly and then I didn't get it, but then God always blessed me and the next job was even better.
You will be able to see the why's and understand once your life unfolds in a different direction.
Hang in there. You are doing good. Try not to get so down on the age and D. It's just a number and a piece of paper. What counts is the person you are and have become through all of these trials. You have become stronger and wiser and God will reward you.
Be excited for what God has for your life! Think of it as the present that hasn't arrived yet!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Thank you, sometimes I don't think I'm doing all that well, but I guess this was another rough week for me. Part of my mind keeps going back to things I shouldn't & part of it thinks about H being with OW & when that happens I'm trying just to say STOP & think about something else. Not really sure what else to do.
I don't feel my age, most days! Plus my 30 yr. HS reunion is coming up & if H was here I would jump at the chance to go but now I just don't know if I will or not. There are a couple of friends that will be there & knows about my stitch. In fact, one of them was here when H moved out.
I guess I can keep hoping for that present, that is a great way to look at it!
I am happy that my dog is doing better, I know she if 14 yrs. old but I just can't loose her now & she acts like she feels really good. She ate better tonight than she has in a while so maybe that is a good sign.
NLT I couldn't imagine what you are going through. I know your life must be rough right now. There is nothing to do, but turn it over to God. He is in control!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
