Sep...I think it helped \:\)

Here's what happened;

They arrived at 7:45 and we sat down to dinner. He was receiving an awful lot of messages and to be honest it got annoying but I kept my mouth shut. He called his Sisters BF because he was one of the people texting and xh figured it'd be faster to just call him. He never called back the other people. he complimented me on the pasta. Due to the eating behaviours of a 6 Year Old we were at the table until 8:20 (lol)

D went off to watch her favourite TV program. We sat on the sofa talked about this and that...Hurricane Ike, his PSP, and mythology mostly. Well, the mythology part he talked and I listened \:D

At about 8:50 he started to go. So I said smiling "you can stay and we're getting along so well" He chuckled and said "I know thats why I'm leaving now!" He gave D a kiss and told her he'd see her tomorrow. he asked me what I was doing tomorrow and I said not much and maybe go to the park. I asked him what he was doing and he said he had some errands (I know one is with his future BIL)

I walked him to the door and went to kiss his cheek, he positioned himself and gave me a huge kiss on the lips.
me(while cupping his face in my hands):I'm really sorry for hitting you this morning
xh: yeah that was pretty unfair
me: I know I'm sorry
more kissing and holding
xh: you know I love you right?
I nodded
xh: You know I do right?
me: Yes I know
xh: I love you but it can't be, you have to let it go
me (crying) I know
xh (with tears in his eyes): You have to...

He left, I closed the door and cryed for a few minutes and then went to see about D.

And here I am typing out my little chapter while drinking nice Merlot \:\) I'm so at peace right now.

Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*

The end of the DB road