Jen- I liked your post! Thankyou for your thoughts. I hope it's all true!!
Julia- your speaking voice is beautiful. By default, your singing voice MUST be! I'm not sure how I feel about the two situations. I think it's fair to say that the CEO thing is helping me detach from H even more. Having said that, when I see H, I'm reminded how wonderful things were with us, and how much I love him. If he was to take steps to a reconciliation now, I'd still do it...... On the other hand, CEO this week has had a profound effect on me. I find myself sitting with him sometimes feeling like a schoolgirl with a crush on the school stud. I find my stomach flip-flopping all over the place. H did that to me in the beginning, but not to the same extent as far as I can remember. It's not good.
Ali- thankyou for being so positive about me! I'm not sure my self-esteem is totally intact, but I guess it helped me that the main reasons H gave for leaving was my hairstyle and pea-cooking. Realistically, they're not good reasons to leave; he has issues!
ITH- H does definitely know that I'd be open to reconciliation. I've told him that before, and he knows I love him. On the other hand, I don't think I've ever 'forgiven' him officially. I presume he knows it from the brief R talks we've had since the S, but maybe he isn't clear on it. Hard to bring up without initiating an R talk though! Thank you for being impressed by me. I have to say that when I was at the beginning I was a total wreck- you're doing brilliantly- hang in there, there are lots of positives in your sitch.
