A lot of it is changing the topic. If I'm around him I can start to talk about something else like I did after he called me a PITA. I started talking about work. It seemed to go ok then until he left me alone in the car. When I saw those pics I don't know what I could have done. I think the key was NOT to look around the car. I could have prevented this by simply minding my own business.
I do get angry pretty quick and quite ofen I don't stop to think who might get affected by this anger. I think if I stop and think even for a couple seconds I realize that I'm about to hurt a lot of special people.
My goal is to get xh back and at the same time have a life myself. To meet that goal I need to let him be and to show him how much I've changed but need to keep changing also. And at the same time meet new people so that I'm not so dependant upon him. A short term goal is for us to feel confortable enough around each other to want to spend more time together.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
