5 weeks remain til next chapter starts

[istherehope]

Hey there,

In terms of what I think about moving in, I'm on the fence. She says unless he starts openly discussing it in advance though, it is my best option. If I stay at a hotel or a friend's house, it will be hard to extricate myself from the situation. It's basically all or nothing. I take the plunge, back into the bedroom and all, and hope he will stay quiet and not initiate a discussion. If he does stay quiet, then I have the chance to show him I need no guarantees or definitions. She seems to agree that he isn't seeing things clearly, that he's wrapped up in how he thinks things will be. It is my house too, and we are both paying the rent. I just need to time it for when he's really busy and won't have time to be thinking about what to do. She said to act "as-if" the sep period has ended then. Problem is H tends to send these emotional emails, and I don't know how I'll handle it if he does so while I'm in the house. I'm basically hoping for a smooth few weeks when I get back, where we talk about nothing serious, awkward though it may be! Of course a better scenario would be for him to ask me to come back, which I could only see happening due to finances. It's not out of the question, but at this moment seems unlikely...

Thanks for the nice words about my actions toward H. This has made me realize that I love him more than I ever thought possible. I don't think non-DBers will ever understand this...

ITH