Cinco - what makes you think so (about the longest post)?
I have been thinking of you and your W and applying some of my top secret pyschic abilities upon you both (LOL!)...and I can "see" in your wife, her awkwardness and innocence regarding sex. I have had lots of women friends who have that same "look"...the look of a woman who does not and will not "display" her sexuality.
Which does not mean that these women are not still beautiful and sexy! Sometimes they are even more sexy because they don't know that they are so sexy!
The good news is that if, somehow through all of this stuff, you can steer her toward some counseling/sex therapy, I think she can get her sexy back. You had mentioned her getting it back before, and I think she can and will....
Understanding more about all the miscarriages fills in a lot of blanks.
Did she ever get individual counseling for that issue? All the pain and loss and fear, and the other crud that goes along with feeling like you can't bear more children? Maybe you could zoom through amazon and check out books in that nature...books for mommies who have gone through all the stuff.
And while you're at it, just order another copy of SSM for yourself!!!
One thing I would propose to you - - is that you stop "hiding" yourself from her. By that I mean, things like, you once said she made a comment about a viagra commercial and was mocking the "old" people who are still having sex like teenagers. You said that inside you were thinking that you envied them. Well...next time something like that comes up, just SAY IT out loud..."speak for yourself wife! I envy them!" And don't make apologies for how you feel about it. Don't let her shut you down, or don't let fear shut you down from saying things that really should not be offensive. You are entitled to your feelings after all! I bet if you did this more often (speaking up), and if you don't apologize for it, and if you make it somewhat playful...you will draw her out a bit by making her realize that she had been stiffling your true reactions...but now you won't be stiffled. I think that would actually help BOTH of you move ahead a little more.
What do you think?
I had dream last night that this whole website was actually a spiritual and emotional "hospital" of sorts, and that we are all here being spiritual doctors to each other, and we are all connected mentally and pyschically, even if not physically.
