Why can't I "get" the no expectations thing? Ugh.

Hurricane Ike is headed right for us (I live about an hour inland, though), and the kids are supposed to be with H this weekend. H refuses to take them because his apartment "isn't safe." Hah! Honestly, it's probably safer than my house.

H wanted me to leave town and drive three hours to my parents house yesterday. I couldn't, because 1. The emergency management plan recommended that people in my area stay put, and 2. I had a horrible stomach bug with nausea and vomiting, and there's no way I could have made that drive. (H was kind enough to call in a prescription for anti-nausea medicine, but it makes me very drowsy, so still could not have made the drive.)

S9 is TERRIFIED of thunderstorms, so the hurricane is sure to have him in a panic. We live in an area with HUGE trees, and the house has lots of open areas and glass. I'm not really worried about flooding, but I am very worried about wind damage. So I asked H to consider staying at the house. He refused, of course.

No surprise, really, so why does it still upset me that he's putting the demands of a 22 yr. old whore above his children's safety?

<sigh> Sometimes I hate him. So why do I still love him? <bigger sigh>


Me:40, xH:41
M:19 T:21
D14, S10, D6
IDLYA bomb:12/22/06
OW bomb (21 yr. old employee):12/23/06
H move out 2/07, OW move in 5/07
D papers served 6/07
D final Nov. 26, 08 :-(