Hey kat and whatdidido thanks for checking in on me, the kids are keeping me focused. W was going to take kids to zoo tomorrow - but its raining, so alternate plan is pick them up at noon, lunch, roller-skating till 4:00 pm then drop them back with me. She will get her fix being with them for a half of a day
When I talked to her, because its raining, she really didn't want to keep them with her at the apartment because 1. there is nothing for them to do and 2. they are not allowed to run around (her words)
I'm being accommodating, because the kids need to be with their mother, I would never deny them of being with her.
whatdidido, W will crash at some point, right now everything is easy on her, I'm still giving her money every month (Sept is last month) and I'm still covering all her insurance, auto and medical, which will end when D is final. When we start sharing the job of taking the kids to school in several months, I'm backing off of this right now, because I don't what her flipping out before the D paperwork is final, but she knows at some point she won't get to see the kids every morning. Then reality will give her a big swift kick - I know it will be hard on her and I don't wish her any pain, but it was her choice
Kat - I still crave the touch of a woman, I'm a strange bird, I'm decisive and know what I want at home and at work, I'm confident and outgoing but around women I'm extremely shy. Not ready for anything now, I feel I need to get through D and the holiday season, maybe early next year.
until then I'll
Just keep swimming just keep swimming
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
