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[istherehope]

Hi BH,

Thanks for that. Maybe I am panicking, but I think guilt is very bad as it makes him want to be around me less. He and I are very amicable, which in a way makes this so much harder. If he was just a jerk and thought it was all my fault, I could deal better. Instead it's the it's not you it's me nonsense.

I did reword the email, so it was pretty mature, even though right now I just want to call him :)-don't worry, I won't.

BH-what does the I need to continue to be alone sound like to you? THIS is what's freaking me out. He didn't refer to timelines or anything, it sounded so final.

ITH