Looking for some more patience!

[kissak]

Honestly guys...I know you are all always saying not to let my H drag me into his drama. But what am I supposed to do when he calls me after 1am in the morning crying and upset and that he has thought about killing himself? Honestly the problem last night was that he found out the OW was dating someone else and that she had my H on the string the whole time. He was so angry at her. Pure hate was coming out in his voice over her. He did what I recognized myself doing so many times to get attention. He knew she was out with a guy and he texted her a dozen times, with no answers. He was hurt, mad, upset and just not himself. I just listened to him, wondering why he had called me. He told me things that normally would have upset me and would have had me in tears, he even asked me a couple of times if I was crying. I had to say no. I had no desire to cry over any of it anymore. I was really sitting there listening, and at the same time trying to understand him, because I had been there. Only I was put there by him. I felt relieved in a sense. Relieved that I werent with this man. He descibed things to me that he had done that really frightend me. He use to hold anger in and not let it out...now, his therapist has helped him not hold it in anymore and really, Im not sure what she has accomplished. He was so hurt and upset by this OW deceiving him, that he didnt know how to feel or what to think or do.

I honestly didnt know how to help him other than to just listen. Honestly, I know this is his problem and not mine and I dont care how much someone has hurt me, I will be there for someone I love. He needed someone to listen and that person was me. I didnt feel it was right to hang up on him and be cold because he was hurting over the OW.

Call me crazy.

I just realize how lucky I am that I have God in my life to help me. I just wish my H would call on him for help.

Im having a good day otherwise. I am tired this morning. But I am so glad its friday!!!