Dear H, I'm sorry that I had to talk to you yesterday. I just couldn't take it anymore. We've been together for 28 years and it seems that everyday you push me away a little further. You treat me like a stranger, as if the last 28 years haven't happened. I needed you to know what this is doing to me. The e-mail you sent that was so business like, so formal, put me over the top.
What I didn't ask yesterday was why can you not look at me? Why can you not say goodbye when you leave? Not that you would have answered. You weren't able to answer any of my questions. I don't know why I asked. You say you will try. I don't want you to. If you can't tell me when asked that the last 28 years meant something to you, then I guess I know the answer. If you can't tell me that you don't think I'm a vindictive bi*** when asked, you must think that I am. I don't get that one though. If I were, I would be telling everyone what is really going on. I would be trying to keep the kids away from you............
Is what you've found with her so much better than what we ever had? You couldn't even answer that one. You don't seem happy, but then maybe I have never known you. I know that the person that I have lived with and loved for 28 years could not do this to me. The person you ARE and have been for 45 years would not be able to do this.
I still wonder, can you really believe that the person you met while working an extra job to feed your family just happened to be someone you could change your life for? Is a woman that turned to you when she was married herself someone to give up all we worked for? Can you not see that maybe she turned to you to pay her cheating husband back for what he did to her? I don't even know her, she doesn't know me, why and how could she do this to me?
Thank you for telling me that you will not treat me like a stranger anymore. Thank you for holding my hand and hugging me before I left. Thank you for telling me you will try to aswer my questions, but I really don't want the answers until you're ready to tell me that I'm right and that we belong together.
I will always love you.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
