I am sad that you are feeling so distressed. I wish I knew what to say to comfort you. I just think you need to breathe and wait it out until your next session with Jody, that call with your H in on the line too should get you some clarity as to what he is thinking. He still sounds very very confused to me and that is a good thing. It is painful and scary but as long as he stays confused the longer you have to DB. Does that make sense?
I know you are hurting but you are doing everything right. Just try to read through your past posts and see if there is anything you can gain from hindsight.
