Help me Act AS IF, Part 7: The Separation

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But in the end, they are going to see who and what he is on their own.

I wish I believed this--but I don't. He's a good dad to them, and, being kids, that's all they really care about. They know I didn't want the S, but they'll never hold it against him that he left me and treated me so badly. He doesn't think he treated me badly--he just fell out of love, and sometimes that happens, but what was he supposed to do, stay? Even though he was unhappy? (this is is thinking.)

My latest worry is that he is going to take furniture from our/my home to his new rental--but that he won't even think to take any pictures of our 19 years together.

I hate him. Maybe it means I still love him--I don't know. It's hard to tell if I really have feelings for him, or if I am just so wounded by being rejected. It's such a blow to the ego--and, yet, I think objectively, I'm considered the better "catch" and a lot of people think he's insane to give me up.