Ladies,

I'm so glad to hear from you. I feel like crap right now, I think I am having some kind of school/career identity crisis, I just want to curl up in a little ball and cry for hours and then sleep for several days. \:\( In my cello lesson today my teacher told me she thought the pieces I had picked were too hard for me to learn in 2 months, then I played really badly and almost cried in my lesson... I don't know what's going on with me. I wish I could go to see my individual counselor.

I'm not sure about the "you rocked my world" plan... it intrigues me but I wonder if it would be too much "pushing", or if I could "pull it off" without puking on myself with fear?? I used to compliment him all the time and we flirt a ton and have lots of innuendo.....

I think turning apologies into compliments is a really good idea. I think if I had a couple statements kind of 'prepared' then I could slip them in at a good moment... for example when he suggested we go to a strip club for dessert and I told him that it was too bad I didn't bring my socks, i could have said something like, "you know, we might have to get a private room in the club because you're the only one I would only want to look at" or something like that.

But, I am not sure it would be productive to really just throw it in there from out of left field? I think it depends on the vibe.

Right now, I am going to wait until I feel more sociable before reaching out to him... or practicing flirting.

Essie, thanks for your suggestion that I text him some question that he "had" to answer. I thought of two questions... he met a really awesome viola teacher this summer, and one of my best friends is looking at grad schools for viola, so I could ask him about that... or the title of a movie he recommended (whose name I can't remember) to add to my netflix queue. ???? kind of scraping the bottom of the barrel though????

I hope I feel better soon
((((EVERYONE))))
LOVE
T