Have you ever went to counseling to just have a neutral sounding board? It has done wonders for me. I think we may only have one more session. We will see, but she said last night that we could have said we were done. I just one more under my belt.
I hope you find yourself and what makes you happy. I know you are feeling like you aren't doing anything right with the way you are getting blasted. There are good things going on, I just think the devil is sitting on your shoulder tempting you with the alphabet girls.
Stay focused and keep your eyes on your goals.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory