I was just half way through a long post and I lost it! So annoying! This time I might post in installments!
I'm so glad you gys like the idea of the choir. I think it's going to be a lot of fun, even more if the beautiful Julia comes too- she's very musical and talented!
Handsome- I'm glad you think H will be returning. I'm not so convinced, but no assumptions, I guess!
Where and Beth- I missed you both. How are you? I'd love to see you on FB too Where. I'm friends with Handsome- look for a girl with a lab coat on!! (That's not the real me, BTW!)
OK, I've had a busy couple of days. More in the next post......
So, yesterday started as a normal day at work..... (but busy!).
Morning: CEO world CEO called me into a meeting with him and a guy we work with. He then proceeded to make a lot of eye contact during it. I charmed the other guy, and CEO seemed really happy about that. It was good fun.
Morning: H world H sent me an e-mail mid-morning to ask if I was going to the networking event in the evening, and say that he was looking forward to hearing my office gossip and football news from Friday.
Afternoon: CEO world We have a team meeting. CEO spends a lot of it looking at me and smiling.
Afternoon: H world I reply to H's e-mail with a short message saying I'm busy but I was planning to go to the networking event in the evening.
Late afternoon: CEO world CEO initiates a conversation with me about whether an acquaintance of ours would be a good catch for me ---------- CEO: you could do worse Me: I could do better CEO: But you could do worse. He's big, your Dad would like him (CEO has never met my Dad!) Me: Well, I could do better, and he's not my type anyway. --------- Then we end up in the kitchen together making tea. CEO initiates a conversation about how it's a good thing he didn't buy me a gas burning hob even though I said I needed one to cook flatbreads (this was because I'd said I can't cook flatbreads). In fact the original flatbread conversation was about 3 months ago. I can't believe he remembered that and has been thinking about it ?!?
CEO then asked where I was watching to football later in the evening, and was I going out with the others to their business event. I said I wasn't, so he spent a bit of time convincing me to go and said I was being coy when I said I'd just go for the football later. He then told the others off for not inviting me to the thing they were going to, but in the end we agreed that I'd meet the rest of them to watch the football later after my event. It was going to be all of the office, jusy FYI for later.
Late afternoon: H world H replies to my e-mail of earlier saying that we can meet before the networking event if I want to, but that we might miss the first half of the football. He assumed I would watch it with him, which maybe I would have if he'd asked me, but he hadn't. I was a bit annoyed about that, and told him I wasn't going to stay out for the football as I had other plans.
Early evening: OD and H world OD and H meet for a drink prior to the networking event. H smiles broadly when he sees me and I am completely my normal self, talking animatedly about what I've been doing. We talk about his family quite a bit and laugh and smile. H maintains quite good eye contact, but it's intermittent. I think how lovely he is, and feel bad for not staying out with him. As we walk to the networking event, H says he printed out vouchers for us to save money on a meal. It was so sweet, a response to me telling him I loved when he looked after our money that way. We get to the event, and sneak in at the back. We whisper to each other while the lecture's happening
Early evening: CEO world CEO texts me to say he's not sure where they're going to watch the match. Then to say they seem to all be scattering. Then calls me to say he's going to watch it at his club and I'm welcome to join him. I say I will. (I know, you guys can 2x4 me if you want to).
Mid-evening: OD and H world H and I are at the networking thing, networking. or I'm networking and H is hanging around with me. I don't know how to introduce him, so do it by name. One person who H knows asks me how I know H. So annoying, but I wasn't that bothered overall. It chipped a little at my hope, but what can you do..... I see an old friend who I haven't seen for about 10 years (he and H have never met). He comes and hugs me and says hello exuberantly. Quite a few of my other male networking contacts also greeted me effusively, so that was good. I feel bad about this, but H seemed so lost. I feel my heart go out to him thinking of it, but he used to be so totally in control, and he just seemed so much like a little boy yesterday evening. *sigh*
Mid-evening: CEO world CEO calls and asks where I am. I say I'm still networking, and he gives me directions to where he is. After a while I leave to go and joing him. I say goodbye to H, and he manages a weak hug, whereas my old friend gives me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek.
Late evening: OD and CEO world I get to the vicinity of the pub after being on the tube. CEO has called and left me two messages to give me instructions and location. He then calls again so I don't pick up my messages. I eventually meet him at the pub. We stand side by side, watching the match and talking about the football. England were brilliant, BTW, one of our best ever victories! After the match, I move to leave, and CEO says he's tired and going home. He walks me to the tube station. As I wait for the tube I hear his voicemails. They're both very sweet- he's walking around looking for a pub to watch the game and speaking to me describing what he's doing as he does it. When I get home I find he's texted to check I got back OK.
This morning, CEO was back to normal. I didn't know what to say about going to watch the football with him yesterday so decided to say nothing. Then he came out of his office and told everyone we'd been to see the match together. That's quite unusual for him; he doesn't see any of the other guys from the office outside work much. We then had to have a meeting about trial I'm running which has worked. He was very excited and gave me a double high-five. He then teased me about keeping it secret, but I wanted to (I haven't seen the actual data yet). We then had a team meeting later in the afternoon and he periodically would look at me and catch my eye and smile. After the meeting he followed me to the kitchen to talk about the meeting in general and when I was passing him a teabag he seemed to brush my hand. maybe just clumsy though.
Meanwhile, H sent me a funny link this afternoon. I replied thanking him, but got nothing back.
This evening I went out for some drinks with some new people and met a girl who's H has just given her ILYBNILWY and gone off with an OW. I recommended DB to her- hope it helps. I was so pleased to be able to offer a positive solution and listen to what she'd going through.
Phew. Anyway, that's been my past couple of days. Busy and hectic, but I've had a lot of fun at least. It was nice to see the old H for a bit, and it was so sweet of him to think of going for dinner together. That was good. Meanwhile, it's so fun flirting with CEO, although I think it's going nowhere. Austin says she thinks CEO has crossed a line with me but if he took it any further the line would become a distant dot, which is true. I am GAL, no ASS-U-MEing, and no expectations....
If anyone's got through all that, I'm impressed and thankful!
Interesting that H was disappointed you had to leave and a bit at loose ends at the networking. Hopefully he's thinking about that today and what he's missing out on in his daily life!
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
Interesting parallel lives you had yesterday! I think you handled thing pretty well. I think CEO is being very careful, but he is pushing the line, little by little. He is watching your reactions. He knows "involvement" with someone who works for him would be a very tricky thing. I think at the first sign of negativity he would back off. He strikes me as a careful type. And of course, someone is jealous!
I think "lost" describes your H very well. It has to be really hard on him to live two (at least) lives. I wouldn't think he could keep it up indefinitely, but he seems to be a stubborn one!
The parallel lives were interesting, and so were H's reactions (or lack of from what he really showed me). Not sure what to do but keep on with the complimenting H while dim, and walking the line with CEO, but on the safe side. *sigh*
Handsome- H does seem to be a stubborn one. I guess there's not much I can do about that. Shame he wasn't so stubborn when cleaving to his marriage vows This week my heart's been telling me he's gone, but being of a scientific bent I can't trust that and will have to wait until my head decides it too!
I'm sorry for the posting marathon tonight all. That'll teach me to not post during the day!
Wow! You disappear for a couple days and when you post boy do you post!
I think CEO really likes you and I also thnk your H is still very confused. You're shining and he can't believe he let you go but now of course he has the stinking eggplant and what is he going to do with her? He has painted himself into a corner and doesn't know what to do. Such a DAM!
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
This week my heart's been telling me he's gone, but being of a scientific bent I can't trust that and will have to wait until my head decides it too!