I guess you said your piece. It turned out to be pursuing, but how were you to know until you did it? She's basically said, my interest lies with OM as a response. The thing I really disliked about what you wrote is how desperate it sounded. I think eventually a moment, initiated by her, would have come up where you could have intimated, subtly, that you hadn't closed the door. The way it was put sounded more like, "I'm a little miffed at you, but I'd take you back regardless of how much you sh$t on me." Keep that in mind for any future R talk, which should be few and VERY FAR between. I'd wait for her to broach any R subjects and then still keep it short. She isn't going to even consider you at all until OM is out of her system, and maybe not even then if she only has memories of you being desperate. She needs to see you stronger. No more giving her ammunition.
You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. Dr. Wayne Dyer
6 months til I bring it up again ? or do I pretend she's not coming back for at least 6 months ? or something else ?
All the above. Except don't "pretend" she's not coming back. Accept that she's NOT!!! You have no idea how far she will go with this. And your refusal to give up the desperate pursuing will ensure she doesn't.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
