H deep in A & MLC, need support 4 roller coaster!

[glamgirl]

Dawn not sure if this can help you, but have you thought about living your life as if ow doesn't exist? I think you have a wall up and a barrier to really showing your h love because of what he is doing right now.

If you could pretend or believe that ow doesn't exist and try showing your love for your h do you think your situation could or would change? From an outside perspective with that wall up nothing is going to change.

It's hard to describe here, but what I had to do was basically forget all that h did and had to stop all the resentment towards my h. I had to stop all the hatrid that I felt for him. I had to let God into my heart and heal those hurts before my h could ever feel good about returning. When those thoughts roll in you must stop them dead in their tracks.

Not sure if I can communicate this here, but start with what would your life be like if ow was not in the picture. Would you make a pot of coffee for your h, would you make him lunch, would you pick things up for him at the store, would you phone or e-mail him?

It could start with something as simple as on your way out the door you could say h I made a pot of coffee if you would like some. Have a good day! Bye!

Rather than this cold ice feeling being around each other and maybe that is not the way it is but that is what I am reading from your posts.

What is it that you want to have happen Dawn with your R with your h, your M? If you can visualize it, you can make that happen!