As I sit here in the early morning..... I wonder what has become of my wife. All the trust is gone and I feel betrayed. She says something and I no longer believe her.
Even though she said she went to the boardwlk to go for a morning walk...as she had for the past few weeks, I just keep thinking that she's doing something else...meeting up with someone.I know I need to let go... but its hard...I had opened my heart and my soul to this woman for 20 years and its damn near impossible to shut it.
She wants me to file the divorce papers as she doesn't really have any grounds. (NY is a fault State). She said that its up to me...if I want to drag this out. Its funny as she wants me out and gone... but at this point hasn't filed papers.
I sit in limbo and wait for the next event. Why do I still care and actually have feelings for her?? She hurt me deeply and don't think I could ever reconcile. My friends and family would kill me if I ever did.
