Thanks Julia. I went out at lunch and bought junk food to get me through the afternoon.

I just wish this was a nightmare I could wake up from. I realize what I need to do, but I am praying that God shows H what he needs to do.

I have to keep reminding myself that sometimes these things happen, and there is a reason for everything.

And I keep thinking that this is one time, like in that footprints prayer, that I really think God is carrying me, because I am just too tired to walk.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..