He still struggles with admitting to himself that he actually cheated on me, but it has only been 3 weeks. He wants to justify that it wasn't an affair until it became a PA which was when we were quote-unquote separated. However, the lightbulb went off a bit yesterday he acknowledged my feelings and told me that if the roles were reversed that he would feel the same way I do. Our MC has been great with that, he won't let him off the hook or allow him to justify his choice to have the affair in any way. When we spoke about it yesterday I told him that I can see how he feels however while he was having the EA and then PA affair with her he was still telling me how much he loved me and he would'nt "let me go", I explained that that is what had me so confused and "feeling crazy" and that if he would have stopped that with me at any time I wouldn't have continued to try to stop the lies.
