Hi there Lodo - many many thanks for your observations on my thread - might I offer mine to you...

It looks to me as if the introspection you are engaged in is of such a high quality and with such insight that you are close to the answer you seek - so long as you do not rummage around too much looking for it I feel sure it will come to you shortly. In the meantime would some more tangible short term goals be of any use to you maybe - rather than reaching for the biggies...

Best - GFI


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W: 40ish
Together: 20 ish years
Married: 10ish Years