Kal I hope you are right, because I can feel myself teetering on the edge of insanity right now.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I so feel your pain. I am just about in the same boat finacially because of the separation and had my meltdown on Sunday. Some how some way you will make it through. It seems impossible now but you are strong and can do it.
Lola when we finally make it through these storms we will be damn Superwomen!!!
I don't know Jeff. I really don't. This is kind of a hard one to try and get past. I am trying to see the positive, like H drove me to work, and will probably drive me again tomorrow, but I just don't know how I am going to get past the feeling that at this point, I am a total waste of air space.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I'm so sorry you are feeling like this, like you are falling apart. You did say one positive thing in that post though, that the meeting with your H went well. I know that getting your car repossessed clearly overshadows the positive meeting, but it is one positive thing. I know losing your H is awful, horrible, and gut-wrenching, but I guess what I'm trying to say is that the positive meeting is still a step forward, a step that will hopefully lead him back to you.
We're all in the same awful boat, and I have to believe that it's for a reason. I have to believe that adversity makes us stronger. From your posts it sounds like you are such an amazing and strong person already, and I know that you CAN deal with this, and that you CAN get through it and have a positive outcome.
Thinking good thoughts for you...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
I sure hope so. Because I really don't think I can take anymore. I have had enough.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
You are NOT a total waste of air space!!! Don't let me hear you say that again!! It is a hard time a very hard time but you will make it through Lola. Just hang in there.
I am in the bathroom trying to calm down, and I am screaming (theoretically) at God asking why?? What more do I have to do??
And I hear this "voice" in my head saying "You need to stop."
I am okay. I think this just is the icing on the cake of a horrible year, and I don't honestly know what else to do. I am hollowed out, feel torn apart, and am horribly sad.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
