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[cat03]

Donna)))))))))))))))))) just catching up, I'm sorry this has been so hard for you honey)))

This morning I woke up trying to piece which came first, the chicken or the egg (was I totally responsible for stbx loosing it or did his mental illnesses got to him first?)
I, you, will NEVER know why things happened the way they did, it is futile to try to piece who did what to whom. This morn I pictured God sadly smiling and shaking his head as he looked at me trying to put humpty dumpty together again, as if I knew what really happened in what order.

It doesn't matter anymore, they are gone, having a GF or not they have chosen not to be with us and that's the bottom line--sure, like you I felt better when i "guessed" he wanst with her, but that was just fooling myself, still holding on to a thread of hope that he wasn't totally gone from my life.

And here is again that phrase my C told me during the final months of heck with stbx: "cat03 doesn't need a man's approval of her worth as a woman, specially stbx's"

Huge hugs and my prayers your way)))))))))))))))) if you haven't yet, read "eat love and pray", it helped me see things in a different prospective.