Her being gone from the house and the slight contact...dude, it is tough. Hard to SEE the hope. I look down at my hands....I can barely see the thread. I know it's there, just hard to see, its so thin.
I can relate to this. I was pretty well detached a few weeks ago. Then W wanted me back and a couple days later said it was a mistake and sorry she gave me false hope.
Yesterday it was another comment about seeing a lawyer. I have also been jumping around all over the place the last couple weeks. The goal has not changed, it just seems cloudy and hard to see.
I did start to flirt a little with some girls last night after the softball game and a couple beers. Then I wondered what I was doing and left. I never really had thoughts about other women since I started dating my W seven years ago.
It is hard to see about R with her sometimes. Who she has become and it is less attractive. I know though even if I don't feel like it I would try. The thought of being single again does look attractive and getting away from this mess. I am sure that it is the wrong path to go down. Just tempting.
Hang in there. Somewhere down the line this will all make sense. Just a bad ride in the meantime.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
