Abbe, Take it slow, let yourself feel whatever you feel... it seems it is a lot of work to piece back together, but you knew that, you are tired and overwhelmed at the work ahead. But, remember the road you've traveled, what you have accomplished. Hang in there.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.