I'm back from vacation. Sorry I haven't written but I have been very, very exhausted lately. I am a very high energy person so this feels awful.
I think that the stress of this past year has taken such a toll on me coupled with the fact that the baby gets me up at 6am everyday.
I feel like I have just run this long race and it is finally over. The thing is I am not sure if I am the winner or not.
I had a good time being away with my H and I know he had a great time and is even closer to coming home but I feel like it still is all about him and that isn't working for me. I still need to go to couples therapy with him so he can work on doing and saying the things that will make me happy like I do for him.
I feel guilty because of all the "work" I did wanting us to get back and now we are going to and I should be more elated. Maybe I am just in a down mood and after I see my therapist tommorow I will sort things out.???
