Well tommorow I go on a family vacation. I can hardly believe it. Two nights ago my oldest son (10) tipped forward on his kitchen chair and cut his eye open..My H and me were at the emergency room with a plastic surgeon stiching up his eye. He can't go in the pool or have any sun on his eye. Pretty hard for a 10 year old at a Club Med Huh?
Funny how the things that would have thrown you in a complete tizzy have very little effect on us now. I don't think anyone who hasn't gone through a life changing expereince like an almost divorce and seperation can relate.
It' funny though the closer I am coming to the finish line the less I am concentrating on what I need to do. I find that I am becoming lazy in my PMA. I need to stay focus because I know my H is still kind of testing the waters and waiting for me to change back.
Have a great vacation! Sorry to hear about S eye!! My DD was in ER 2 weeks ago also, unfortunately she had amputated the tip of her finger in a door and they did not suggest we see a plastic surgeon, just let it heal.
Anyway, maybe since we have this in common, I will also be in piecing soon.
I went club med years ago and LOVED it!!!! I'm jealous nik
I'm back from vacation. Sorry I haven't written but I have been very, very exhausted lately. I am a very high energy person so this feels awful.
I think that the stress of this past year has taken such a toll on me coupled with the fact that the baby gets me up at 6am everyday.
I feel like I have just run this long race and it is finally over. The thing is I am not sure if I am the winner or not.
I had a good time being away with my H and I know he had a great time and is even closer to coming home but I feel like it still is all about him and that isn't working for me. I still need to go to couples therapy with him so he can work on doing and saying the things that will make me happy like I do for him.
I feel guilty because of all the "work" I did wanting us to get back and now we are going to and I should be more elated. Maybe I am just in a down mood and after I see my therapist tommorow I will sort things out.???
Keep the faith...it must be overwhelming to have him come back...so many things have changed..it must be like two strangers getting together to start a r....the hard work is just beginning, from what i have read here. Take it slow
Abbe, Take it slow, let yourself feel whatever you feel... it seems it is a lot of work to piece back together, but you knew that, you are tired and overwhelmed at the work ahead. But, remember the road you've traveled, what you have accomplished. Hang in there.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
