Looks like the "family" trip isn't going to happen...my H will have to be preparing for trial at the time he wanted to go...and I doubt there will be another time soon where we could work it out where we could all go.
I spent most of the weekend arguing about financial issues via email with my XH. My XH always ends up attacking me making me out to be a horrible mother and just an awful person...I really think his W writes the emails but even still he lets her send them. I really get so tired of trying to deal with them but when there are kids involved, you have no choice sometimes. I just feel bad because the kids end up being caught in the middle even if you try to keep them out.
So by the time my H got back from seeing his D, my emotions were pretty raw. When my H called, I was kind of upset because of what that had been going on all weekend. I told my H everything that had been going on with my XH. He was nice and tried to support me...but then he told me that he mentioned to his D that we are going to C. He said she reacted and he asked her if she had a problem with it. She said "yeh, seven years worth"...I guess she was refering to the amount of time my H and I were together before she left for college. She then told him that she doesn't like me. That is no surprise to me...after my H and I got married, my step-D never did like me regardless of how hard I tried. I had just hoped she had grown up some since being away a college. I have to admit it did hurt when he told me that.
Fastforward to last night when we went to the C. I wasn't in the mood to sit there and listen to my H bash me so I told the C and my H how I felt about somethings...mostly how this is moving so slowly and I don't want to be doing this a year from now. My H was fine with it for the most part except if I tell him how I feel, he gets extremely defensive. So, after we left the C, I figured we would go get dinner or something because my H was leaving today on a business trip, we haven't spent much time together recently and I just finished telling in C that we need to really start working on things. He told me that he didn't want to go out because he needed to get ready for his trip. I know I acted disappointed and he reacted. He told me "Well, maybe we are just beating a dead horse here". I told him that is fine if that is the way he felt. We talked for a few more minutes and he seemed to regret saying that and he said he would call me later. He did call. I was pretty fed up by that time. He asked if I wanted to do something this weekend and next weekend. I couldn't really answer him. Sometimes I just don't care anymore. He said he would call me today but I have yet to hear from him.
I'm feeling a little beat up...not sure where I am at in all of this today...
