Is he starting to come home?

[Ready2Change]

Ok, now here is my school of thought: Always be nice and upbeat around him because it makes ME feel better, knowing I am a good person and still capable of having compassion with someone who may not deserve it. Look as cute as possible because it makes ME feel good and confident, not doing it for him. If it makes it hard for him to leave, good because he needs to feel anguish over what he has done. If not, then he is a shadow of the man I knew and I dont need the new him anyway. Go NC when it comes to my personal life and dont care about his personal life, it no longer concerns me. This way I get to detach and heal but dont feel like I am being a mean angry b!tch in the process. I'm not going to pay attention to OW because I know she is a band aid. If he moves on with her then he will get what he deserves, and he clearly does not deserve me. I truly believe that he is suffering tremendously from his guilt because of the things he has said. Good. I do not believe that my acting with kindness is going to make that go away. He knows what he did and he will have to live with it for the rest of his life. I am no longer going to reach out to him, that is over. No long talks, no glasses of wine, just friendly "Hi, how are you doing" kind of stuff. I am going to focus on giving to me and my S only. So, what do you think?

YOU HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD!!!!! BEAUTIFUL!!!!!


*HUGS*