BM (hehe, I cant but help but giggle at that) I can not even imagine the pain you must be going through. I have been told that unless our WAS are completely remorseful and willing to do what it takes to make the M work, then it is a false R. It sounds like she is using you to get her security while finding emotional support elsewhere. I think it is a good sign that she is willing to go to MC, but I would make it a deal breaker that if she does not become completely transparent then all bets are off. She is either in or out at this point. You have been going through this for such a long time. You have worked very hard to save your R. There comes a point where us LBS have to say enough is enough and just move on. I truly hope she can do the work needed to fix this, otherwise she is going to go from one R to another always seeking that emotional boost but never feeling complete. I am so sorry you have found yourself here once again.
Like I said, the fact that she is willing to do MC is still a really good sign. At this point you need to do what is best for you. If you can hang in a little longer without it doing emotional damage then do that. If it is too much then know that you tried, but she did not. I'm sending positive thoughts your way.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
