Ok, nocode, I thought that is what you meant but wasn't sure. I know what you mean. Sometimes, I do silly/clumsy/unattractive things around H and think "Oh well, guess I'm not the better option". Totally know what you mean.
All you can be is all you can be. Don't try to be anything other than that. If W doesn't see all the wonderful qualities about you and see that you obviously would be the better choice...that is very sad.
