No one needs to give me advice on this. I know that what I did was wrong, counter-productive, self-abusive, etc. Most of me knows this, but the heart.....I have to learn to take control of my heart.
I just wish I was numb.
Oh but sweety you are numb.
You do need to take control of your heart. It's so hard to do. But you have to do that for you. You're worth more and you will not accept anything less. Remember that. Do not go after him. Do not make him justify his actions. Let it go and give yourself the pleasure of getting on. It's really good if you will let that be.
Love your kids and most importantly love yourself Donna. He will do what he wants. So you go do what you want. When you take him out of the equation, you will find that there are things YOU want to do. So go do them insteand of worrying about him.
I'm thinking about you sweetie and hope you are well today.
