I have to forward and send emails about the kids, that's all. I am treating it like a newsletter to a PTO parent. Just the facts.
My D has Open House tonight. I'm not going (S went to same school, and it is just to hear about expectations in general, etc.), and I have to go to AlAnon within a 1/2 hour of it starting.
D called her dad and he knew about it; he's going. Makes me want to puke that he will most likely go with her; they are going to be a regular Brady Bunch, a family with 6 kids. And my kids will like going over there, since it is more like an "intact" family.
X had been the one who went for the vasectomy; he didn't want any more kids, wanted to be young enough to enjoy retirement and grandparent. My youngest is 9; he just took on a 5 and 6 year old, in addition to another 9 and a 15.
My friend told me yesterday that good, let them move in together, live the reality. So far, they have been in fantasy land, sneaking around, "dating." I just don't see him backing off of this, though. Ever. She pointed out that those children are a nightmare. I know; but he is a good parent, and will quickly get them to a better place.
OT is right; the outcome of my life can't be contingent on him anymore.
Do you know that even after all the things he said to me last night, he has told bff that he wishes that it was different, that we could be friendly at least to co-parent? That it could have been different if I had been different. I guess he means completely accepting of all of it. Friendly? How?
I wish I had been stronger over the last year. I know that my actions have sealed the fate of my relationship with this man I so loved. If I had only been as strong as you, Nikki, or Sally.
