True life is lived when tiny changes occur

[Kalni]

WTF are you all wonderful, hot, creative, smart, sexy-foxy ladies doing on THIS board? Jesus!!! The world has gone mad...

[JCJ]

Wow OD, that is such a great list. I'm going to try them Watch out world, with all us gorgeous women on the board out boob stroking the men out there aren't going to know what's hit them!

[One Day]

YAY- I'm so glad you like them Essie- I hope your H appreciates them when he has the Full Flirtatious Future-girl experience!

(((((Essie)))) ((((Melon Queen))))

L.xx

[Virtually_Handsome]

I don't think I should even be allowed to read this!

I have to say, I think that list would leave my a complete drooling embicile. After I woke up from fainting.

[Virtually_Handsome]

By the way, I had to fix about 10 typos in that post before I could post it....... brain has gone numb.....

[transformer]

OH MY GOD I AM SO LUCKY
YOU GUYS ARE SO DELIGHTFUL AND MAKE ME LAUGH SO HARD!!!!

(((((((EVERYONE)))))

OD, you could give a professional class in flirting!!!! I love it!!! I am definitely going to print this one out!!!


((((((EVERYONE))))))

LOVE
T

[Virtually_Handsome]

I know where you could practice!

[transformer]

and where might that be, my friend?

[Virtually_Handsome]

and where might that be, my friend?

No idea.....

[transformer]

Dearest Essie,

you are amazing. thank you so much for taking the time to think all of this over with me!!!

I actually LOVE your apology letter. Do you think he knows any of this? Would it come as a suprise to him? Did you express any of this ever in the history of your R? Can you imagine saying any of this to him? I think its possible to drop something like that into a conversation, and it be much less confrontational than a letter....

Thank you!!! I am pretty sure he doesn't know most of it, if any of it. I MIGHT have told him during the webcam breakup conversation that I insisted on doing everything my way. But everything else is stuff that I figured out by myself since then and haven't communicated yet. I CAN imagine saying this stuff to him. I actually have a very specific "image", we're on a sidewalk somewhere in new york walking, and he brings up the R and I kind of laugh and say, "you know I'm sorry, I wasn't very good to you...."

I LOVE your examples!!!! they are SO positive!!!! You're actually right, Essie-- all the guys who have hit on me since the bombs (with the exception of the sweaty middle eastern bicyclist in central park) have been no where near as good at listening as B. And I DO think about B rocking my world sexually ALL THE TIME.

For a long time I AGONIZED over whether to send the original much longer and much more confused letter. Then I had an epiphany that I needed to communicate the content of the letter with my actions, and that's what I've been working on, but... I'm not sure he would intuit any of this.

I feel like I am primed to deliver this message, or little bitlets of it one chunk at a time, when I feel like the moment is right. But I would like to do it in person, after he's brought up the subject. Right now he doesn't seem to be even returning my phone calls, so ... how to.. do... that??? Help???

I am not sure who to practice flirting on... maybe... everyone?? It could just be my new constant state of being mode???

Come to think of it, when we had our first meeting, Dinner In June, I did jokingly pretend to caress my breasts... perhaps this set the tone of the evening more than I realized ("how do you feel about cheesecake?")?

thanks for reminding me about the contact lenses thing and how he was worried about my eyeballs. That is a really good example of him taking care of me...

Last question... I mean, never say never, anything is possible...

(((ESSIE)))
love,
T