lan....thanks for keeping an eye on me...you are a very astute observer my friend...i have always thought this and your most recent " created the environment where you would feel you had no alternative to back out" is another example of it. I am just not sure she did it purposely.
Kerry...after reading a few of Barkley's gambling exploits i would say that his brain disconnects from his body often and not only on the golf course!
You don't know how little it would have took for W to bring out the positive john.....when you get kicked below the belt for a year, positive johnny gets buried. I can assure you that i was not lacking faith. I can also assure you that i put up with way too much $hit for too long......twice! But K, I will get better......GUARANTEED.
J210 PS in retrospect when i found out she wasn't where she said she was...for a whole week....I should have left.....end of story....but hindsight is 20/20.
John Sorry you are in a funk. If you need a little time in the cave, hunker down. Just keep poking your head out to talk to us. We like talking to you, just wish it was better news...
Glad your D is coping so far. It won't be easy on her or you, but you can do this. I am sure it just sucks at this point. But, as I said before, you know you did what you could do, you know you love(d?) your W and of course your D. You wanted the M, what else is there? If you say you had the faith I believe you. And as someone who let her H kick her around (figuratively) for far too long, I know what it is like to wait for the other shoe to drop...
I hope you get the love and happiness you deserve, from D for now but from a special lady (never say never it could even be W) in your near future........
W called last night...D7 has lice! i went to pick up D7 this AM. because W was too busy to babysit. I have my mom taking care of D7 and she will be in my apt. for the next couple of days. She already has her own room here....I guess I will washing alot of bedsheets and pillow cases in the next few days...not to mention combing D7's hair. Oh well at least will be spending time together....how is that for positive thinking?
I like talking to you guys also....i often wonder what kind of shape i'd be in if i did not find this site. Never say never...i gues syou may be right BBJ....really don't think it will be W....she is not relationship material....maybe a one night stand ;-).
J210 is from my original e-mail adress. You know john@ was taken...the next available one was john210.....I have changed it but still use john210 as passwords and such.
HI John, I think we'd all be basket cases without this outlet for encouragement and 2x4s and such. <SIGH> Yeah, the W as ONS. I can relate on that front.
