New month, new strategy

[istherehope]

Alright probably last post from Dublin. I'm feeling melancholy. I'm in a taxi in the rain driving the route that H and I would drive home feeling really, really distant from H. He is creating a new life and I just wonder how I will fit in, and whether he will resent me coming back to Dublin when I do. As usual too, when I talked to a couple of friends about it at work, I got the speech that I should really consider my needs and how long I'd put up with this. I stuck to my guns though and said that I had nothing bad to say about H, and that I believed in marriage and in my feelings. In fact I convinced one friend so much that her eyes teared up so this made me feel good.

All-I am still wondering whether DBing is right with a depressed person. 5 more weeks though can't really drive us too much further apart can it? He is better since I've left but the distance between us has definitely grown.

Anyway I know I need to be positive. Tomorrow is another day! Tomorrow can be a good day and I have my call with Jody...

ITH