It was a very long and mentally exhausting day. He did not contact me at all and I did not contact him even though I was very close at times but I resisted.
I cried alot. I just want this all to end and have him back in my life and my daughter's life. I don't want it to be the way it was. I want it to be a new beginning for us.
I have to believe this was meant to happen. I have to believe we will have a closer relationship once this passes. I do not want to give up. I do not want to let go.
I barely eat. I have no energy to do anything. All I want to do is sleep. I'm at work because I absolutely have to or else I would just be at home.
I know this is hard. I know it's crushing. But believe me, as a man, that it's unattractive. I'd run for the hills.
Consider something would you? Your husband has cheated twice in a 5 month marriage. Doesn't that make you mad? Doesn't it make you question whether you would want him? And yet, here you are pining away like he's all that and a bag of chips. HE doesn't deserve YOU; not the other way around. Get back on your feet. Start looking good. Start feeling good. Flirt and see how it feels. Smile at people just for the sake of it, even when you don't feel like it. SHINE! Don't think about your husband or your marriage for awhile. It's not going anywhere. Instead, think about what you are going to do with your life now that he's gone. Is this what it is going to consist of? Work on yourself, and if your husband doesn't notice, at the very least you'll be happy with yourself.
You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. Dr. Wayne Dyer
