At this point in my life I would like to limit contact with you.
I will try to tell him that, even though I'm enjoying his visits and attention. He all of a sudden has become his old loving, caring, wonderful self. Go figure. It was easier with the spiteful alien... I cannot even look at him without remembering the good times. Now that I'm finally home, everything is a reminder of the wonderful marriage I used to have and the loving man I didn't know how to treasure.
For both of us the burden of guilt is really heavy, but I don't feel like helping him to lighten his. Not now, anyway. I'm not angry with him. I'm paying now for what I've done, for taking him for granted, for not paying attention to his needs. But I don't want to pretend that I'm fine with what he did.
Last edited by stella_k; 09/09/0806:50 PM.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
