today did call him at work, kept it light and cheerful, needed to know if he is going with me to our kids open house at school tonight. He is not sure but will try. Said "okay maybe I will see you there" He sounds so depressed all the time, it is hard not to ask him "what is up, don't you know that if you just gave her up and came to your senses we could move past this and get better" He just can't see what he is doing. My friend said it is like with an alchololic, they don't realize how bad they really are. I wonder sometimes if just throwing it all in and walking away, letting him go to her, and getting a divorce would be better. I sometimes wish he would stop saying he love me, but then if he did I know it would be devestating. I agree with Kelly, I am tired of this controlling my life too.
Me 40 H 41 T17/M14 Sons 7 and 4 OW - yes for over a year "I don't know what I want" 5/29/08
