"I am trying so hard to be detached, to GAL, to live my life. But I must say, he makes it much harder, keeping so much contact. I don't want to be friends with him. Should I tell him to stay away from me? Or would it betray my weakness?"
The contact from him is the guilt.. so he is still carrying a weakness also. The holding hands.. the awkward moments. They all play into it. Again.. people never intended to hurt people love.. but sometimes they do.
It just goes to show.. there is always a struggle within.. even when things are "wonderful".
If you don't want him around.. tell him.. don't have to be mean about it.. don't have to explain it.
Something like....
At this point in my life I would like to limit contact with you. Can you please call or text before you come over?
Use your words.. just throwing some ideas out.
When someone makes a choice.. that hurts you.. all you can do is let them live their choice.. and not hurt you anymore.
That.. will always leave the door open.. for something to change.
From Me.. and my small Mind!
Keep your head up..
And Always..
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.