What a different scene this year. Not teaching! But I went in for the evening at the studio and helped coordinate students, staff, class schedules etc. It was calm and well organized. In the past it felt so hectic. The difference, of course, is that I wasn't trying to do the same work while teaching. I realize that I have been majorly multi-tasking for my entire career. It is little wonder I ended up in hospital last year with my BP off the charts. I think I'm realizing that someone else can teach and do a fine job while I handle the rest.
And the funny thing is - I didn't miss it quite the way I thought I would. My life used to consist of running around trying to organize everything for everyone at the studio in addition to a full days work on choreography. And that was before I even left home at 4 to GO TO WORK! I'm over 50 now. I swore I would not be teaching when I was 40 - HA! H never made enough to support me so here I am. But still directing it all feels right. I have a wonderful staff - a receptionist, 3 teachers and 3 assistant teachers. I have to let go a bit and let them do their job, guided by me, but not controlled by me. Does any of this sound familiar?
And this is the first year since she was 2 that Ashley is not at the studio. She worked there since she was 12 (as I did growing up). She has interviewed for a fulltime job in a pc tech call in center and will likely get the job. She is finishing her General Arts and Sciences at college via Internet courses. I'm not crazy about this plan but at 20 - she makes her own choices. He dance classes would be tonight and I half expect she'll grab shoes and run out the door at the last second. It is hard to leave.
I have a full day of studio work ahead of me again and must get started. The clouds of earlier seem to be moving out and I look forward to better light as I have a 1/24 scale dollhouse to build today for a group project I'm working on for the Orlando group I belong to. I hope to present it by our deadline in Nov so I need to get my flight booked as well.
I ramble, don't I?
Anyway, it looks like a great day is shaping up. And a great year at the studio as well.
