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I'm sorry, Braveheart. I was reading some of the threads here yesterday, and I guess I just wasn't paying attention to all that was going on, plus I was working and in between patrons at the time. Oh well, no excuse. Just a little under the pressure because H is pushing along this divorce.
Anyway, who is Braveheart? Is Braveheart AmyC???? I see that AmyC is on this thread. Allaluhia!
Amy, I read your comment in purple just now, and it is really good. I am in this place with my husband. In fact, last night, I called him (I know, I shouldn't have). The details are in my poet/newcomers thread. My husband is in an angry place right now too, just like someone on this board (can't remember who). And yes, last night when I was talking to him, I asked him..."Do you treat everyone like this, or just me." He said I am the only one, "...who treats me this way," meaning that he is treating me with disrespect because I'm the only person in the world right now who is treating him with some unkindness. I know I've done a lot wrong to make him hurt, but honestly, the only thing I'm doing right now to hurt him, is living in the house while he lives in the camper (in some undisclosed location) and continues to forge ahead with this divorce.
I used the alien phrase on him. I said, "I can't seem to talk you you. It's like we are strangers, like an alien has taken over your body." Boy, that got a reaction out of him. He paused -- a long time before he shot back something. I can't even remember now what that was.
AmyC, you asked about my new handle and I didn't want to answer on my own MLC thread because I was afraid H is reading it. I have three threads out there right now - one in MLC, one in Newcomers and - the one I originally wanted you to look at is called "the eerie story of the life of love." The Handle is *love. It's in the Forgiveness forum. I wrote to you about it on Frank_C's thread one day, but he quickly posted right after that. And, he ended up turning the page. No biggie, just thought I let you know. Anyway, I was originally going to post ALL my wrongdoings there, but something changed when I created the thread. I wanted it to be positive and in the spirit of *doing the right thing." I wanted to forgive my husband. I'm pretty much just journally there now. It's all about forgiveness, and I think it is working.
I must tell you, though, since reading some of your stuff, and since doing some of my *own* thinking (whew, that's a switch) I'm beginning to understand that I must also forgive myself. I'm amazed at how well my *love* thread has been changing my thinking. I'm not angry at him anymore. I still love him, but I'm not sure if he's even right for me.
I was preparing many of my documents yesterday for my lawyer, who, by the way, will be having a phone confernece with his lawyer today at 2 p.m.... And, I saw/in one day from making copies of what I collected etc, all that he's done to me over the past several years. It was heartbreaking, but it was an eyeopener. And, I realized how blindly I trusted him, in the face of adversity. I saw a lot of the answers that Forest was talking about (the post in which I inadvertantly called Braveheart another name). Hope that makes sense. Anyway, my mind is a bit foggy this morning because I had to take a sleeping pill last night and that's all new to me too. I've not taken any drugs in 20 years.
Oh, well, maybe I'll stick around the boards here when I get to work today at 11 a.m. If I think of something else, I'll post to whichever one of my threads is most appropriate. I may even come back her later and cut/paste this to me own thread for documentation purposes.
Good day to all, and keep smiling. Forgiveness and love! poet
