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[hoosiermama]

{{{{Donna}}}}
No, dear, you're not psychotic. You're hurting. It's okay. It was a bad night, but this is another day and it's behind you now.

I know that look--the anger and disgust. It haunts you, I know. But you know the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference and apathy. He still needs to hurt you and be angry to justify his actions.

He didn't pick her because she's a better person than you. He picked her because HE's a much WORSE person than you, and he's going through a teenage phase of rebellion and following his hormones. His whole family is with you. You are a far better person than she is, honey--you have his children, his parents, you didn't bust up a family, and you have some profound inner strength. Eventually he will grow up, because he can't live in a fantasy forever. You are the mother of his children--he will eventually recognize how important that is.

My prayers are with you today. Put last night behind you and begin again, one foot in front of the other. One day at a time. All those cliche's--but there's some real truth behind them. Blessings, dear.