Why can't I stop crying. I was doing so well. I was adjusting to things. But, lately, I just seem to cry for no reason. H and OW are tucked cozy into bed together and I'm up alone crying. I can't sleep and the tears just keep flowing.
How can H walk out on a 20 yr marriage and not look back, not try to make things work, or even give us a second chance? All he cares about right now is himself. He cares more about OW's kids than his own. He thinks because our S's are older they are OK with this and can handle it. He's so wrong. He doesn't see S16's anger.
I sent H an email to thank him for helping board up the house for Hurricane Gustav. I'd meant to do it earlier but busy with after hurricane clean up at home and SIL's. I also reminding him that S16's game was moved to Thursday instead of Friday. He just said you're welcome and S16 already told him. I guess he at least replied which is good thing.
I'm trying to be patient and put things in God's hands. But, in 7 months my D will be final. Then what? Will OW finally get him to marry her? I hope not. I really thought he was an intelligent man but this new guy isn't too bright. I WANT MY OLD HUSBAND BACK!!!
